It seems that sometimes, God cleans house. I’m sure He has different approaches for different people, but His approach with me seems to be to come in and clean house. He throws out the things that have served their purpose to make room for something new.
One particularly speedy session of spring cleaning accomplished everything in the span of four days.
In this particular week, on Monday I received a call from my mechanic telling me that my car had died its final death. The only car I had ever owned, the car that I received as a graduation gift from my wonderful grandmother, who had sense passed, was never to be revived, and I must now finance the purchase of a replacement.
On Tuesday, after meeting with a church leader and explaining my vision and giftings, particularly my desire to empower believers to use their gifts and to help connect people with similar passions, I was told I needed to go elsewhere. This church has no interest in people pursuing ministries that were not officially church-sanctioned, and so I should go find a new church.
On Wednesday my boss took me to lunch. He told me that his job and mine were being relocated. However, he and I were not. In two months, we would both be unemployed.
On Thursday it became clear that my relationship with my fiancé at the time was ending.
In the course of one week, I lost the future I had envisioned, my church, my job, and my car, and I gained the burden of purchasing a vehicle while staring down the barrel of unemployment.
I spent that week (and the months that followed) clinging to God. This process, watching so much be torn from me so quickly, was very difficult. (Yet in the midst of it I recognized how blessed I was that my family and my home were left intact during this massive cleaning spree.)
It was so difficult, but I had confidence that God was doing something. That He was going to rebuild something beautiful from these ashes.
[And He did. I moved on to my (much better) current job, where I met the man who is now my husband. Meanwhile, God led me to explore the idea of “church” on a whole different level, which led to the birth our house church.]
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It seems we are facing something similar today. The details are different, but the situation is the same.
God is cleaning house.
He is removing things that He previously put in our lives to make room for something new. And although it is painful to see things slip away, it is critical that we keep our eyes on Him. On what He is doing.
Rather than mourning the loss of what was, I need to look ahead. To the new life that He is creating.
The Lord will guide you always;
He will satisfy your needs in a sun-scorched land
and will strengthen your frame.
You will be like a well-watered garden,
like a spring whose waters never fail.
Your people will rebuild the ancient ruins
and will raise up the age-old foundations.
– Isaiah 58:11-12a